All bout KeLZz

It all began with thinking of not to go for the prom. But things changed last minute. About 2 weeks before prom, i actually decided to go after i seeing all my frens are going so i bought my prom ticket worth RM85. It was held at Sheraton Hotel Subang Jaya, on 12 June 2006. So i had planned to go dye my hair before goin for the prom but unfortunate my color didn’t work out so i had to go back there again and because of lack of time, my hairstylist quickly set my hair and i went off home at 5.45pm to get prepared for the night. It took me about less than 45 minutes to get ready. Just imagine how fast was that? Then i headed off to my journey. Had to drive there alone due to "some people" who suppose to fetch me but did not do so. Anyway be reached at the place about 7.10pm and i thought i was late but when i sms my fren, she was actually still at home. (if i knew, i wouldn’t rush) Seeing everyone arriving looking pretty and handsome while taking pictures with my frens (searching for cute guys) aiks!! The prom actually started at 8.30pm when it written on the ticket was 7pm. sigh… but anyway the food was good cause it was from TGI Fridays (my ticket was worth). The table beside mine, there were 3 guys dress as though they were from Korea and they look like one too. Me and the gals was like staring at them and I had never see them around before in college though.

Anyway there were performance played and the two MC of the prom crack the joke of everyone. They were so good that everyone laugh like a mad chicken. haha… But anyway i get to take pictures with my frens for the last but there would be another photo section on my graduation day. Hopefully i graduate and my results are out tomoro. really nervous right now. hehe. The food was good, the performance was urm okie… but the best performance was done by my friend Melissa. She was great, the way she played the saxophone was really "power". I was really suprise that it was really good. She played like Kenny G. haha… The prom was really great. It would be a very memorable thing of my Taylor’s College. Check out the pictures on my album or either my multiply side at http://kkps87.multiply.com/photos/album/7 and don’t worry there would be more pictures up after my graduation day. thanks for peeping!!

It began when Wei Ping called me up on friday night for a drink. at first joanne ask me to go but because i said finals was near by and i wanted to stay home for the week end to study. Ended up with the sweet words of weips, she said just a quick "yam cha" then i go back early to study. but then i reach home about 2-3something AM. Anyway then we were all in the car, hearing to loud music, singing to it. thinking about this and that. That night weren’t what suppose to happen but i think the whole weekend weren’t suppose to be what it suppose to be. Anyway then we were planning to go up Genting on that night after coming back from Cheras but Jo, had class the next day then they said why not the next day? then i suggested why don’t we go to PD? we have not been there together before.

So my Saturday was actually very disturbing because i got a wake up call at 7am. Can you believe it? 7am? Jo suddenly told me that we are goin to PD/Genting at 11-12 and my job was to wake weips up. and as usual we had to give 2hours for her to get ready. and then i call her up at 9.30am. sigh… she din answer her handphone then the only way was calling up her house. her mum answer the phone and then she ask is it urgent cause i told her to wake weips up for the trip and we are leaving at 11-12. 5minutes later, i got a call from her saying that she might not go coz her parents is scolding her and all the normal crap what parents normally say. another 5 minutes after the phone call, Jo msg me and started scolding me saying why did i say such a thing to her mum. i was totally "WTF"!!! but anyway with the time delaying here and there we ended up leaving PJ at 3.30pm. from all the wake up calls and arguement, we ended up leaving so late.

On the way to the trip, everyone was in the car listening to the songs, weips holding on to the remote control, skipping the songs one after another and we harldly even listen to any entire whole song. It was kinda irritating then i took the remote away from her and wanting to hear the songs without changing to another then she stole back the remote from me and started skipping it again. it was totally "sigh". The trip last for about 1 in the half hour, coz all of us keep guessing where is the beach, looking at sign board for it and asking ppl for directions. then weips keep wanting to ask those MPPD workers "mana pantai"… it was so funny and lydia keep saying "follow the smell of the salt water" and finally we found the beach. everyone was "wow"…

At the beach no body actually brough their swim suit except me and all just wetting their feet, taking pictures, playing with sand and then we left around 7something. luckily all of us left early because on the way back it was raining heavily. but we get to take the beautiful sun set on the way back before the sky started to pour. While Jo was driving, she ran over a snake and she was shock about it and they started to make all the lame jokes about the snake get stuck between her tires. haha… This was all happen during the trip.

Due to the limited spaces that friendster had provided for the album side, there are more pictures at my multiply website. Its http://kkps87.multiply.com/photos/album/4 check it out cause its absolute delicious… hehe… Thanks for dropping by.

On 5 may 2006, Cheryl, a friend which i met at Passion one nite. She held her birthday party at her house and had warn us before to bring extra clothes. So the night had begin when a friend, Arvind, pick me and my friends up and hit to her house. Making calls here and there to find the way to cheryl’s housing made me even more hungry (didn’t eat dinner). Made a few wrong turnings and finally we reached the house.

Not many people were there yet at the moment even though she say its starting at 8pm but we were there like hmm… 9 plus i guess… So me and Wei Ping sat at the table with a few unknown friends and Arvind and dunno who who who… So my tummy was really very hungry already, making my way to the food… then when back to the table and while i was starting to eat, this Tan Wei Ping left the table to answer a call… So i was the only girl eating "innocently" alone… then suddenly this Arving came and stole my meat ball… sigh… I was too scared to go and take more food when i saw more dishes came in… so i just walk out and saw that Wei Ping on the phone leaning on Arvind’s car… So i just lean beside her and after a few minutes… a bout 5 cars pass by and most of them i noe… so they park their car, smile at us and walk into the house…

In the begining, it was kinda bored because just me, Wei Ping and Lydia sat  on the chair and making our own imaginary table because all the tables were full. i think about more than 50 over people came. then the guys all wanted Arvind to make the open ceremony to jump into the pool. I can’t remember who got in first but one by one they started choosing and throwing each and everyone into the pool like a ball… and suddenly Meng Kuang look at me and say, one of the gals must get in… then as usual, with their tricks they started saying can i see ur bag and bla bla bla so that nth else will be spoil in the pool. Finally they took my bag, then about 4-6 guys carried me and throw me into the pool like a ball. I came out of the pool searching for Wei Ping screaming her name. found her hidding behind a car. i quickly wipe my wet body on her and miss Lydia. then the time passes by, wei ping and lydia got thrown into the pool as well. hehe… FINALLY!!

All together i got thrown 6 times. How embarresed am i and guess what?? there goes my watch(bye bye). then it was 2-3 sumthing everyone got out of the pool and crowed outside the house talking all sorth of stories and then the guys wanted to go for a drink, so Wei Ping ask Gan to fetch all of us back. I reached home then went to bathe and thats about it. next post will be up soon. hehe…

Times haf passes by with many ups and downs after i wrote my last post. i shall not mention it because tears will tend to drip from my eyes. it is best for me to keep it to my self. the memories of it will always remains in my heart. No matter what happens, all memories will be remembered through out live and death it will always remains the same. some of you might not understand what does it means but some of you will know. If you still doesn’t know what i am trying to say here then its up to you to find out.

Anyway, lets not talk about that. My topic this time is about my 01.02.03.04.05.06… Do you know what it means? This will only happens once in a life time or once in a hundred years unless some of you will live more than 100years old. Do you still know what does it means? Its a moment which happens at 1.23am on 04/05/06. So i think you should understand now? So tell me how did you spend your memorable moment at that time? For me it is a very memorable moment but it wasn’t in a good place but yeah… its memorable! i was on the phone with my special someone that time. even though i couldn’t be with him at that time but atleast we were talking to each other. I had to tip toe down stairs to use the phone because it was like 1 something am in the morning and everyone was asleep. So i was on the line with the lights off and mosquito flying around me and sucking up my blood. Even its in a bad situation atleast i manage to listen to his voice. Plus before that time, i had to study, study and study. even after that conversation, i had to study, study and study. Sigh… coz the next day i got a test which is today.

Talking about the test, it was really horrible. The whole entire class was copying each others answer plus the international students were using their language organizers to type out the answer in it and finding the correct spelling because if we spell wrongly, it will consider as a wrong answer. The organizer was pass all around the class. I was shock when my fren an Iran call my name and put his organizer on my table. he look at me and smile. when i took the organizer and saw he had writen down lots of answers in it. i was like "OH! THANK YOU!!" So we all manage to answer the whole paper but the only part that everyone copied is the fill in the blanks. there were no matching answers prepared like usual because my lecturer said its for only "secondary students" then one girl answered that "we don’t mind being secondary students"… haha… but its really totally a BIG BIG SWT!! having this kinda class mates really helping me to pass this course and its great having them around. thanks everyone!! haha…

recently i feel that i got cursed by someone or was it call bad luck? everything in my life now really turn the other way round.. i just want some air to breath and its so hard for me to even have one.. everything just did not turn how it was suppose to be..

Things that did not turn out well:

1) i drive a car and i got into an accident

2) i walk to college and i got robbed

3) i stay at home and i fall sick

4) i study for my test and i still fail it for the 2nd time

5) i wipe my glasses and it broke into two

6) i want to make him happy ended up we argue

7) what is next??

all this had happen to me not even a month and it just hit me and i really want to prevent it from happening but how can i do so? i just want a peaceful life and not a horrible life like this.. i just want to do sumthing very simple but it is just so so hard for me… y is life so unfair? when will this bad luck leave? watch a simple movie with him also there is always something blocking me from doin it? y? y me? i dun get it? what have i done? is this karma or wat? if it is then can somebody tell me what have i done? and now i’m having a week holiday which i don’t know what am i goin to do except for finishing up my assignment… i just want to spend my time with him but he is always busy with many things.. when i wanna go out with my frens its so hard for me to even hang out with them.. there is something blocking me from what ever i want.. am i thinking too much or what?? if i’m not then y is this happening to me all in one short?? i really feel so stressful about.. i want a peaceful life and please someone help me up!!

as alot of people know that i have found the love of my life which is the guy that i kept on talking about through out the whole blog (james). it seems hard for me to accept the fact that we suddenly had to become best friends like he said. i had terrible 2 nights that i have gone through that he was no longer loving me anymore. i have done plenty of mistakes which i shouldn’t have done it. i made arguements which shouldn’t had been fought for. i made plenty of misunderstanding between us because i thought i was right all the time which i was mostly wrong. i had never wish this will come true to me that what is happening to me. i wasn’t ready for this. why do i have to always be so rude, un-tolerating, mean, selfish, subborn, controlling, jealousy and what ever attitudes that i have irritated him about. i really wish i could change back time. i really regreted what i have done. i didn’t know what i was doing and thinking while we argue. now i realise how rude i was to him. i’m really sorry for what i have done to him. and i promise to not repeat what i have done all my mistakes before and begin a new fresh one with him. i just want him to know that i’m taking this relationship very serious. i just want a normal relationship with him that he loves me and also i love him back as well without any arguements between us again. i really miss all those time we had together. watching movies n eating pop corn so often every week, spending time with him on the bed just doing nothing at all, sitting in the car thinking where to hang out, he sitting beside me while i watch tv and he doesn’t really know whats really going on, going to different pet shops hunting for rabbits, looking at hamsters which was very poor thing, going to restaurants and sharing food together, passing him my drink which he always finish so fast, going shopping with him, walking around the malls without thinking what to buy or where to go, laughing together at so many kinds of things, hanging out with frens together, coming to each others house, playing online games together (literate, pool and etc.), on-ing webcam for each other every night, going out hunting for things together, buying him gifts, asking each other questions regaring the world and often go (what if… and what if…), thinking how to answer those type of questions, our 1st date together, going clubbing together, dancing together, drinking together, huging each other, kissing each other, having sleep overs at each others house, bathing together, spending many occasions together (christmas, new years, CNY, valentines, anniversaries) and i would want to spend every occasions with him, calling him dar and he calling me back dear, tickelling each other on the bed and so many more things that i can’t think about now. i really miss him right now… i really want to do all those things together.i hope that he would really think about it again and make all this come true. i love him so much.

i have been very busy lately… and what was i busy of?? i don’t even know my self… -_-"’ sigh… lame me… its now 11.50pm on friday night and i’m in baby j’s hse doing some work… being jobless and suddenly being hired… sigh… i’m waiting for him to give me sumthing to do… hahahaha…. anyway it has been some time i have not updated my blog… college have started… life back to normal not like the past month… everyday keep thinking what to do next or have been very busy going here and there… doing this and that… sigh… anyway my cousin "kitty Khoo" is back from aus lately and had been hanging out with her quite a few times… its fun having her around with all the nonsense jokes here and there… and seeing her laugh and her bf, alvin koo, laugh along make me even wanna laugh even more… hahahha….

it has been almost 3months i’m with james d and my life has not been happening as this before… every moment with him there sure will have a very exciting thing that would happen… except when we argue… who will think thats exciting?? hehe… anyway we did spend alot of time together… really really alot of time together… hehe… (dar, i know you are getting bored of me) anyway i did help me do some of his stuff… i’m trying to get a job for a "financial controller"… HIS financial controller… hahahahah…. i’m trying really hard for that job you know… hehe… anyway i’m freaking thristy now… i have been doing alot of stuff… really alot… sigh… and it is 12.48am… my preciaous time has been used to do something important… hahaha… and i’m like writing this blog after get a break… his mum sitting rite infront of me and i don’t even dare to open my mouth and ask him for a drink… i’m freaking thirsty now… sigh… oh well… i guess i’ll be staying over nite her… i’m not too sure… he will be busy until dunno what time… mayb 6am again??? aaarrrggghhhh….

now i wonder what else can i do… since they are both talking… i feel so sleepy… aiyo… y isn’t his mum sleepy at all?? i’m very sleepy already… *yawn* james ooi… james ooi… i wonder does he realise whether i’m still here falling alseep?? bleh… i wanna sleep and i’m thristy… james ooi… aren’t you thristy or sleepy?? huh??? weih… i’m looking at you and you not noticing it at all??? aarrgghhh… bleh… horrible meany… sniff sniff… i guess its time for game again… hehe… look what look james ooi?? summore complain complain to me right now… nice ur backside arr… nice nice… do your self la harlo… my shoulders here pain d u know anot?? come and give me a massage la weih… hmph!!! time for soup… gtg… to be continue next time and its finally 1am… SWT!!

i done my hair d… it turn out not i wanted… sigh… it seems like there is no differents… da color is like i dye it black n my hair style still looks da same… sigh… i shall do it again next year… bleh… hopefully after i wash da colour will change le… hehe… but atleast i look more neat than before though… hahhaha… i kept complaining to my fren that "did he cut my hair?" n "why no color wan?" until he also complain back to me… that i very ma farn… hahhaha… so funny… bleh… anyway its 2.50am now n my james is playing game… dunno what game is it coz i still understand da game… hahhha… suddenly just feel like hugging him now staring at him through da web cam… hehe… i keep hearing da word "level up"… hehe… sigh… tomoro can’t go to sunway lagoon d… had to postpond it to friday coz i just down treatment… bleh… sorry dar.. if you are angry that u wanted to go tomoro so badly… but i make it up to u da next time k?? muaakkss… love you dar…

so its 11.40am on monday… this is like da 1st time i woke up so early during da holidays.. becoz of my idiot father dunno why is he even at home… he on his freaking music so loud dunno for what… i wonder is he deft?? hahhaah…. anyway it has been awhile since i last wrote my blog… many things had happen… sad and happiness… ups and downs… alright lets begin…

so, my finals are finally over… my last test i thought it will be easy but it turn out damn freaking hard… i hope my results will stay da same like what i got before da exam le… haih… thats 1 of da sadness… but oh well… whats done is done… anyway then right after my exam i spend most of my time with him… it was best… becoz this was da 1st time i’m spending my 48hours with someone i love… hheehhe… 1 of da nights we went up genting just for da fun of it wif a few frens and it was like triple dates… shiok man… hahahah…. then we wasn’t prepared at all because it was a sudden that everyone agreed to go up… tat night was freaking cold… lucky there were jacket for me n da gals… oh tat night is a very memorable night becoz i get to hug him as tight as i could.. hehehe… thats a happy thing and night before this sumthing bad had happen…

so all six of us, went red boz and then there were singing and drinking… so towards the end, we plan to have supper so we decided to go "banana leaf" … then we wanted to make a U-turn but da road was block n da only way to U-turn was to go through da kepong tol…. so we went… n mr. jamesy here wanna lansi with his mazda la… speed here n there then suddenly we saw a police car… and it stop my frens car… so we slowed down to see whether is he alright… so our car was park at the public toilet… and i was left alone in da car becoz he wanted to see his frens were they alright… becoz all of us drank… sigh… so i saw their car went pass me… n then at that very moment … it was da most scariest thing becoz he suddenly call me n tell me that da police is heading towards my dirrection and he wants me to drive da car towards him… but it was too late… those "ma chans" were behind me… so they ask a couple of questions… almost got me saman becoz i was siting on da driver’s sit without a "P" sign stick on da car… sigh… wtf?? spoil my night n my apetite… bleh… oh well… lucky i don’t get any samans or anything… hhahhaha….

so on saturday… went to da pc fair… walk alot… ask alot… all becoz of whose fault??? hahahhha (you know who you are??) bleh… anyway then we wanted to go back to ss2 for dinner n suddenly we pass by time square… so we decided to check out da imax theater… it was cool but expensive though becoz it was only 45 minutes n charge us rm15 each… but it was an experience wert rite?? at least we get to try sumthing new… hehe…  and yesterday was my grandma’s b’day n i didn’t know about it… hahha… i woke up like 3pm then i saw my mum baking cake n muffins… so i ask her who is she baking all these for?? and she said it was my grandma’s bday n celebrating it tonite… n i was like?? what?? i’m da last person to know… no body inform me about any dinner… sigh… what a family…bleh… so later that night, suddenly me n "him" had an arguement… bleh.. duwan to mention about it d… becoz we r clear of our self of what we r doing… right????

so later i’ll be doing my hair… hope it will turn out good… heheh… otherwise i’ll be wasting my money…so its 12pm…. time for my tv time n lunch time… hehe… then i’m off to do my hair… and tomoro i’ll be goin sunway lagoon with him… yeah!! bleh… hahhaha… love him to bits… muaakksss…

the feeling is coming back again and i don’t like it!! i can sences that this relationship is not going to work out and i don’t know why?? why am i being so sensitive? i don’t get it… i try my best to make him happy and satisfied but what else can i do to make both of us happy?? i hate to argue… no body likes to argue but we seems very cold to each other after we argued and settle everything.. y can’t i have a simple relationship?? i know i got my faults also… yes i still love him but does he still?? i seriously can’t stand this pain being hang and don’t know what to do… its really effecting my studies and i can’t pay any attention to it plus its about 5days more to my finals and this kind of thing is happening… why do i have to face this kind of situation again and again?? i had face 8 difficult relationship and finally i found the right guy that i can let him do what ever he wants to that i have nvr let any of the 8guys done before… am i doing this wrong?? i need help!! i don’t like to be stuck in this situation… i want to trust him but i don’t know how to trust him?? i am really scared to be cheated and hurt again… i really do love him alot and i really really do… what must i do to make this relationship work out?? i am not a very patient person and i wanna settle this problem once and for all…