All bout KeLZz

as alot of people know that i have found the love of my life which is the guy that i kept on talking about through out the whole blog (james). it seems hard for me to accept the fact that we suddenly had to become best friends like he said. i had terrible 2 nights that i have gone through that he was no longer loving me anymore. i have done plenty of mistakes which i shouldn’t have done it. i made arguements which shouldn’t had been fought for. i made plenty of misunderstanding between us because i thought i was right all the time which i was mostly wrong. i had never wish this will come true to me that what is happening to me. i wasn’t ready for this. why do i have to always be so rude, un-tolerating, mean, selfish, subborn, controlling, jealousy and what ever attitudes that i have irritated him about. i really wish i could change back time. i really regreted what i have done. i didn’t know what i was doing and thinking while we argue. now i realise how rude i was to him. i’m really sorry for what i have done to him. and i promise to not repeat what i have done all my mistakes before and begin a new fresh one with him. i just want him to know that i’m taking this relationship very serious. i just want a normal relationship with him that he loves me and also i love him back as well without any arguements between us again. i really miss all those time we had together. watching movies n eating pop corn so often every week, spending time with him on the bed just doing nothing at all, sitting in the car thinking where to hang out, he sitting beside me while i watch tv and he doesn’t really know whats really going on, going to different pet shops hunting for rabbits, looking at hamsters which was very poor thing, going to restaurants and sharing food together, passing him my drink which he always finish so fast, going shopping with him, walking around the malls without thinking what to buy or where to go, laughing together at so many kinds of things, hanging out with frens together, coming to each others house, playing online games together (literate, pool and etc.), on-ing webcam for each other every night, going out hunting for things together, buying him gifts, asking each other questions regaring the world and often go (what if… and what if…), thinking how to answer those type of questions, our 1st date together, going clubbing together, dancing together, drinking together, huging each other, kissing each other, having sleep overs at each others house, bathing together, spending many occasions together (christmas, new years, CNY, valentines, anniversaries) and i would want to spend every occasions with him, calling him dar and he calling me back dear, tickelling each other on the bed and so many more things that i can’t think about now. i really miss him right now… i really want to do all those things together.i hope that he would really think about it again and make all this come true. i love him so much.